This might be premature, but I feel as if I am in a new phase of my journey. I seem to have broken the bad habits that triggered this persona and this blog in 2013. At least, I feel ready to aim at some new goals, and to orient this persona and this blog around them.
I have three largish goals I’d like to aim for. They are more like states of affairs than events.
- Be a good husband (and father)
- “Come out” as Christian
- Have sex with my wife
The first has to be achieved before the other two I think.
I’d like to achieve the first goal this year, and then aim to achieve the other two in 2018.
By being a good husband I mean being a source of stability and strength for my wife. Also a source of good vibes and happiness of course, and a source of feelings of calm and safety. I want to establish that before demanding special treatment or “recognition” (2) or special favours (3).
I don’t quite know what I mean by “coming out” as a Christian. It might mean “declaring myself” to my wife. It probably does mean going to a church semi-regularly, and meeting other Christians In Real Life.